Twenty Propositions on a Mesoscale Low-Pressure Center
Audrey Wang
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- When the wind blows and my bangs are no longer, I walk onwards
- I walk onwards into the storm, put on headphones, and begin to dance.
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Dance and feel alive.
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I want to feel alive, so I follow my friend into a 36 year old man’s car at 12:08 am on a Friday night. Listen to Stereolab as he drives us across the Point Street Bridge to a second location. Sit cramped in the back of his little old coupe, watch the lights shimmer on the surface of the river, wonder if everything will be alright.
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Everything feels alright when I’m studying the red blinking lights of the three smokestacks outside of my window. They never seem to move the same way—
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Is a pattern even a pattern if it never repeats?
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Where does a beginning begin and an ending end?
- At the end of the night, a kind stranger invites me to go fishing with him. I want to say yes. I have always wanted to experience the foreign joy of being a man; to tie up a pretty little lure, cast a fishing line, sit in my boat with a cold beer and wait. I want to say yes to this stranger, become someone I am not for a day.
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Perhaps I should be more afraid, but
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I am not afraid of death. (Death is more natural than working a 9-to-5 job;
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I am more afraid of getting hurt.
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On the day of the mesolow, I laid in bed and licked my wounds.
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I am dog cyclone. Mouth chasing tail.
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Body rippling.
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Bloom.
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I was born on a Wednesday. It was cloudy.
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I put off calling my mom. She tells me I need to renew my passport. The words 吾爱侬 stick in the back of my throat.
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I am trying to hold onto happiness. It is such a slippery slippery little thing, it keeps on slipping out from my fingertips.
- At times there are contradictions in my metaphors; nevertheless, I am moved by them
- When the wind blows, all roads lead back to Providence, Rhode Island.
Audrey Wang is peeling orange fruit.